Shit happens aye?

It's a Saturday and I am so damn boring already . Its gonna be 1 pm and i haven't had my lunch yet . I woke up 2 hours ago and I brushed my teeth and straight switched on my lappy and went facebooking . Now , I'm blogging and chatting with Darlene. Updating ourselves . It's so obvious that I'm lifeless cause i aint doing anything besides being online. How i wish i could spend my saturday outing around with my friends. I would have if i was in Malaysia! Everyday is a new day there aye? Hmmm , look how boredem can kill our life.

What that bitchyo said is still on my mind somehow . I cant take it out. Its just too harsh . It might be a joke for her. But It fucking bothers me. Grrrr . My mum ditched me today . I wanted to go out . But it was obviously a big fat NO from her . The good thing is that im not hungry since i skipped dinner last night . The bad thing is that i'm bored . I wanna do something . Lol i am suppose to finish my evaluation for science . I'm suprised that i am actually gonna gain 4 credits for that! woott! lol i have to start working on that in awhile perhaps . Later i might be meeting up with lily! like after 10 weeks! But i know things changed massively already . Teddy is with me at the moment . We are so bored . Lolololol , i took some photos of teddy recently . I think it teddy looks so kewl innit ;]

teddy with the bands i got xD

teddy with the shades i got in malaysia xD

After SoDamnFreakingWeaky Long .

Omg!I'm blogging! After like how many months i wonder.. Lol thanks to my friend vinesh . He kind of brought me up all in the mood to start blogging. First of all , I feel so lost here 0.0 Hahaha. There's only one thing running on my mind now , 'TIME FLIES FREGGIN FAST ' xO .

My previous blog ( which was on june ) was way emotional . I tried learning my mistakes since i wrote that . And actually started appreciating things . And things turned out well . I actually got a chance to go back to Malaysia Ku Yg Tercinta lol . I had awesome , tons , loads of fun memories . It was fun to know , that there were few ' countable' peoples who actually missed me fer the past one year . And i also received compliments from them . I found them so random . But i started blushing tho lol. 5 Awesome Weeks in Msia was the awesome-est thing ever . And again , it past in a blink of an eye . Dayum ! Can't wait for my next trip . Wheeee xD

And now , back to so damn 'lifeless' country , New Zieeee. Things aren't really the same . No fun , thrill , and every freaking day is the same . Grrrr . Im trying my best to make life interesting like in so many ways . Jeeeeez . School life is going on a great mess at the moment . People are trying to link my facebook life with my real life . LIKE WTF . They just cant stop bitching bitching and bitching . Especially in bloody dance class. Those bitches just get on my nerves . Throws the ball on my should and fucking say ' YOU ARE LIKE SUPPOSE TO CATCH THE BALL ?' and i cud have fucking replied ' WELL THROW IT TO MY HANDS THEN BITCH ?' Damn , i just cant wait fer this term to over . And shift college most probably! GOSH!UGHH!GRRR!

This whole month is gonna be full of exams. 5 more weeks till the for my 2 months bummer holidays! Can't wait like seriouslly . I just can't take it with bitches totures . It's seriouslly annoying . Trust me . I miss my malaysia life so damn much at this very moment . It would have been so fun if i was actually studying there . But it would have sucked educational wise . I would have just be in year 8 , and im like entering year 11 in new zieee . Which is pretty awesomee xD

So I'm not gonna write much for now. I have been one of the randomest blogger by blogging once per month lol . I have decided to at least blog at the weekends now . It actually fills up my time . And yeah . It is all about the mood i am according to the current situation . I miss my life in Malaysiaa now ! I'm home sick :(

The one and only wish..Will it come true?

Have you ever wished for something special to occur in your life everysingle day when you're awake or about to sleep or even when you're day dreaming ? Well i have , had , and always did . To tell you , i daydream alot , i preffer to stay awake and dreaming of something instead of sleeping and having a dream .For some reason, my friends describes me as their one and only vampire mate .Hmm yeah , imagination rules my world totally. I really wanted something in my life. like seriouslly. damn really. And i couldn't think anything NOT to get it. I always tought about the positive side of it and never ever stepped in the dark side in that matter. People in my life are way random . They are all mixed up. I don't have 'clicks' or whatsoever u call them . I just go with the flow. But sometimes , the flow can lead you to a wrong destination..

Oh, wait, before u get it wrongly ! I'm not saying that i'm up to no good or something with my mates , lol. It's just that , everything happened so fast , that i can't even think of an ending.But i know the time has arrived for me to think about it , which i refuse to everysingle time ! I don't want this to end. I want it to continue . As i planned. Smoothly. With the help of the whole universe. My mum especially .I really need her to be with me in this matter . But as usually , it's gonna be a NO since its in my case. These past weeks, i have been going thru tough times. like seriouslly. They were some bunch of happiness. Which i really appreaciate . But remember , where there's fun , there's pain too. Life's aint all about Happiness. It's about Sadness too .

Most of you all might not appreciate the life you have. That counts me in too. I never did appreciate things. NEVER. I didn't really give a damn about my life. These days , i have been thinking deeply how selfish i was? It's not that i'm going to confess for being sucha bad human being. It's just that i'm hating some parts of my life. Which i didn't really knew they existed. I have never trusted god in my life. i didn't really had time to pray . I just can't be bothered sometimes. But i feel mean and selfish now when i'm actually seeking for god's help . It makes me an odinary human being afterall , finding god whenever u have problems. So in this matter , will god help me? Will he actually start to accept my prayers after ages ? Will he make my wishes come true? Time's limited.. Will he actually make it go slow? I know i have been making my life hard by myself. Yeah , I'm the only reason my life's currently fucked up. I don't appreaciate things. All i do is ask for more.

So whoever who's reading this. You might be anyone . Someone random . But i bet we have similarities in our lifes. hmm yeah , everybody have PROBLEMS/ISSUES/HARDTIMES in their life. Maybe i just have it more than you all? Who knows..? I mite be smilling outside , but i'm dying inside. That's for sure.. All i ever wanted to be is the bestest daughter , a sporting sister , a caring girlfriend , a good mate . Did i succeed..? That's not true for sure..

So will it come true..? Or not..?

ABC :O !!

A - Age: 14 years old (:
B - Best coffee : caaappaachaaainu , lol :D
C - Chore you hate: dishes...grgrr..
D - Dog's name: dasa
E - Essential start to your day: to hear his voice
F - Favorite color: black and red
G - Gift you love getting: electronic stuff
H - Height : 169cm
I-Instruments you wish you play: guitar
J - Juice or pop: pop :D
K - Kid(s): nonee..
L - Last CD listened to: erm , cant rmb
M - Most memorable Christmas/Birthday present: hmm..
N - Nicknames: sang , sun
O - Overnight hospital stay other than birth: naa..
P - Pet Peeve: none..
Q - Quote from a movie: lol , uhh , not into movies
R - Right or left handed: righttt.
S - Siblings: dasa
T- Time you wake up: depends hmmm
U- Ultimate vacation destination: aussie , lol , lame much . haha
V - Vegetable you dislike: none :D
W - Ways you run late: huh ?
X - X-rays you've had: chest
Y - Yummy food you make: milo ? lol
Z - Zodiac : aqua

Term One . Pak College :D

hmmm , i still can remember that day , that very first wednesday . Pretty nervous tho , but with some excitement too ! Haha with some confusion in it . It was a mixed feeling day :D And it passed by to the next week , where my new friends were questioning me about valentines and talking bout birthdays randomly . Oh well , its my bday today i said . haha , u have goto see their reaction ! I had a great time that day . And days passed where i found another bunch of bees , whoops friends i meant ! hehee . they were the Year10 groupp , lol . pretty awesome too but the only prob is they were one year older than me :( hahaa . and they are getting their driving license this year ! :'( Well ill be getting mine next year sow no worries yaww ! :) And yeaa , everyday in school is an unique day . Well still , its pretty scaaaray to see 10 WEEKS PASSED BY IN A BLINK OF AN EYE !! today was the last day of the semesta/term . we had share lunchh . thnks guys fer bringing the wonderful yummay cakes and of course that was a huge group of us ! YOU GUYS ARE LIKE THE AWESOMEST FRIENDS ! this month post in my blog - i dedicate it to you guys yaww ! and ofc , thnks fer the pizza hazelnut ! hahaa.. cant wait to see u guys.. 2 weeks more.. have a great holidays yaww ( im still wondering watodo during d hols) and Oww yeaa Pakuranga College rocks yawww !! hahaa , miss ya'll <33 mwahs .