The one and only wish..Will it come true?

Have you ever wished for something special to occur in your life everysingle day when you're awake or about to sleep or even when you're day dreaming ? Well i have , had , and always did . To tell you , i daydream alot , i preffer to stay awake and dreaming of something instead of sleeping and having a dream .For some reason, my friends describes me as their one and only vampire mate .Hmm yeah , imagination rules my world totally. I really wanted something in my life. like seriouslly. damn really. And i couldn't think anything NOT to get it. I always tought about the positive side of it and never ever stepped in the dark side in that matter. People in my life are way random . They are all mixed up. I don't have 'clicks' or whatsoever u call them . I just go with the flow. But sometimes , the flow can lead you to a wrong destination..

Oh, wait, before u get it wrongly ! I'm not saying that i'm up to no good or something with my mates , lol. It's just that , everything happened so fast , that i can't even think of an ending.But i know the time has arrived for me to think about it , which i refuse to everysingle time ! I don't want this to end. I want it to continue . As i planned. Smoothly. With the help of the whole universe. My mum especially .I really need her to be with me in this matter . But as usually , it's gonna be a NO since its in my case. These past weeks, i have been going thru tough times. like seriouslly. They were some bunch of happiness. Which i really appreaciate . But remember , where there's fun , there's pain too. Life's aint all about Happiness. It's about Sadness too .

Most of you all might not appreciate the life you have. That counts me in too. I never did appreciate things. NEVER. I didn't really give a damn about my life. These days , i have been thinking deeply how selfish i was? It's not that i'm going to confess for being sucha bad human being. It's just that i'm hating some parts of my life. Which i didn't really knew they existed. I have never trusted god in my life. i didn't really had time to pray . I just can't be bothered sometimes. But i feel mean and selfish now when i'm actually seeking for god's help . It makes me an odinary human being afterall , finding god whenever u have problems. So in this matter , will god help me? Will he actually start to accept my prayers after ages ? Will he make my wishes come true? Time's limited.. Will he actually make it go slow? I know i have been making my life hard by myself. Yeah , I'm the only reason my life's currently fucked up. I don't appreaciate things. All i do is ask for more.

So whoever who's reading this. You might be anyone . Someone random . But i bet we have similarities in our lifes. hmm yeah , everybody have PROBLEMS/ISSUES/HARDTIMES in their life. Maybe i just have it more than you all? Who knows..? I mite be smilling outside , but i'm dying inside. That's for sure.. All i ever wanted to be is the bestest daughter , a sporting sister , a caring girlfriend , a good mate . Did i succeed..? That's not true for sure..

So will it come true..? Or not..?